A Nerdfighterly Confession

So last night, which was actually more like early early this morning, about 1 or 2 am. I was making a bideo response to Toddly00 and instead of ending the recording when i was done saying what was to be recorded for the video I continued talking to my camera about whatever came to mind. For the first time in a long time all the words I wanted to say easily flowed from my lips. I even discovered what ive been searching 2 years for. Ive been spending my time trying to find my hobbies, what I like in life, what I want.

I thought I wanted tons of friends. Be able to talk to everyone. I never really was close to anyone, but through trying to achieve this I actually became more distant to everyone. so that was basically a fail. not to mention the people who were to become m closest friends I really didnt like all that much. so double fail :(

Now, as I was thinking I tried to remember the happiest moment of my life. I got to thinking, finally seeing my favorite band of all time and rocking to their music was so utterly Epic... but no this wasnt the moment i thought and though, this doesnt seem like my happiest. I figured it out, The Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows book release party. How could I have not paid attention to my love for harry potter. Honestly I was trying so hard to search for self fullfilment I still dont own Harry Potter 5 on DVD. and that just aint like me.

I realize how much I never really wanted to be one of these people. you know, the ones who believe their life is about one thing. I feel I have finally found where I belong. and I owe this realization to youtube. none of my current friends have the interest i have, or if they have them, they arent interested in the same ways. which means it was of my own accord I found the nerdfighter community. it was until recently I was slightly ashamed to think I might be one of these nerdfighters.... but as every day carries on I learn more and more of the general group and realize THESE are the people I want to befriend(i hope that means what I think it does). THESE are the people I never got a chance to grow up with.

I opened my youtube account about a year ago and merely forgot i had it untill i got a random message in my email about the account. this was just last october, so i figured why not start using it and I did I believe the first person I subscribed to was charlieissocoollike which led me to fiveawesomeguys and you know how it spreads from there. but still not knowing the vlog brothers.

I kept hear 'nerdfighter' this 'nerdfighter' that from tons of the people I was subscribed to. and finally somehow stumbled upon the vlog brothers and learned that with the nerdfighters is where I belong. going back, haha, the best moments of my life have been in and with these things that most nerdfighters love.

I have now realized that Its not hate I have had my entire life, its been confusion longing for understanding. I was confused why no one was like me. I wanted to be understood. I wanted to understand. and now I do kinda. all because one man toddly00 requested that I talk to a camera for a bit.

I now know that what I want to do with my life is enlighten people to how I have been treated and what really needs to be done. Bullying is a major problem everywhere and part of the problem is adults not dealing with it the way they should. Before we scold the children when need teachers supervisors and parents to truly understand what is going on and how to actually deal with this. this is my confession to what I am going to do the rest of my life. I will probably get a degree in psychology, with a minor in some sort of music or entertainment studies, and start up a foundation to help influence the correct way to deal with this.

tomorrows VEDA is going to be devoted to Alan Moos. I will explain why in tomorrows blog, but for now I need to do some stuff on facebook (haha i'm a nerd!!! :) )

Later
Ashley Bowerman
DFTBA
http://www.youtube.com/lessthanlots

Old Friends Renewed

I feel so bad... I put off doing this blog and now its 12:45 AM so actually not day SIX anymore, but since this website generally shows the time two hours behind mine, I will appear to be safe by about an hour. I have not yet figured out how to change the time XD. anyway, here goes.

So I got Paid today, so I guess im gonna be talking about money now. I was paid $168. I owe my mother $80; leaving $88. I need at least $30 to get into the Shiny Toy Gun/ All American Rejects concert a week from today. but im guessing the tickets might be more at the door maybe $40. I usually need at least $25 dollars for gas per week, so hmm... I dont think ill have enough money haha. and my job is thinking its ok to give me only 12 hours per week, but yesterday, the last day of the work week, I got lucky and was sent home an hour early. so, yay for only 11 hours... I smell a big paycheck.

Other than that, I went to princeton, a town slightly bigger than mine about a 15 minute drive from my town, where my bank is located. Also one of my old best friends now lives there. He moved there about a year ago. but we started to lose touch two years ago. anyway, i figure since I was in town, theres no harm in calling him up and seeing if he wants to hang out. And he could. Usually when I hangout with him, he acts like a fag and is all stupid, but today I rather enjoyed hanging out with him. other than the fact of him helping me waste my gas It was nice to see him again.

Today in my Vlog for VEDA I chugged a monster in about 18 seconds, including the small break period haha. I plan to in the future show charlieissocoollike up at his ketchup challenge, but drinking a full bottle. beware though, I have found a loop hole in the challenge and I am fortunate enough to have the right equipment to prove it.

Surprisingly Today is the only blog to not be listening to music while writing. I am watching Ella enchanted:) I have never saw this before and it is turning out to be quite interesting. reminds me tons of the 10th kingdom the only 6 hour movie I can watch start to finish without getting bored. Haha I can hear my mother snoring from the next room.

My goal for tomorrow is to post my Vlog and my Blog at a reasonable time, and also to wake up at a reasonable time. lol i doubt that will happen though, I love sleep.

hmm... I cant quite seem to remember exactly what it was I was going to sa... um, well, good night.

Ashley Bowerman
DFTBA
http://www.youtube.com/bucketlips572

oh man

wow am i ever putting off writing this blog. I promissed myself to do it before work today... that was 2 hours ago. I now have 20 minutes to write this. I hate being such a procrastinator, lol.

So yesterday I got my hair cut, went to st cloud, saw the result(in a way) of a bad looking one car accident... I believe there was only one car.

The accident- I was driving my sisters friend home and going a mile or two over the limit... sorry... and shes like you might wanna watch your speed theres alot of cops on this road. So im thinking uh ok, but they arent gonna care about 1 mile over. and almost immediatley after she said that we saw the lights of what must have been about 4 police cars and joked about a party being busted. but no, up ahead the road curves so actually they were all on the road just ahead of where we were. we get closer and realize a fire truck a few tow trucks and as said before, about four police cars. the had the road running on single lane traffic, so we had to wait a bit before they let our side go. as we sat there we looked around and saw electric company trucks, so im think hole shit they mustve hit one of the poles. we are finally able to go, and wow was i right, the pole was halfway down and the car a little ways off with an obvious dent from running into the pole. assesing the situation from my view it looks like as long as everyone was wearing seatbelts the only major injuries would have been to those on the passenger side of the car. just hopefully no one was on that side. It appeared that the pole struck right between the front and back door on that side.

Anyway, I'm really regretting the fact that I dont like to write stuff down. I had about 4 ideas to talk about in Vlogs and blogs before going to bed last night but over the course of sleeping have forgotten everyone. my goal is to improve on this stupidness and write my ideas down. afterall some day they could really help me... maybe.

well i really cannot think of much more to say so im gonna end this here and get ready for work. ooh Simple Plan

Laters,
Ashley Bowerman
DFTBA
http://www.youtube.com/bucketlips572

WOOT

Music on. ooh, Sex Pistols. Its come to my attention that whenever my computer isnt emiting sound (is emiting the correct word? idk) it thinks it is neccesary to be producing a buzzing noise. It seems as though it doesnt matter if it is through the speakers or a set of headphones.

Haha Maureen Johnson posted the link to this on her twitter. thought it would be neat to include it here.

Any way I only have about 20 minutes until I have to begin getting ready for work. I know this isnt enough time to write a sufficient blog, but I will add later... Promise. But im unsure, would it be best to do a new post, or edit and add to this one? if your reading this feel free to comment and tell me what you think. well, I geuss even if your not reading this.

I believe that last sentence was 100% unneeded, but do I look like i care?.....?.. ok then, dont answer ill ju.... Hey look a turtle, Hi mr. turtle man.

so last night I was in walmart and convinced my mom to buy me a tripod. so I immediately ran/walked over to the section where they are kept, and to my dismay saw that they thought it was ok to block the items people wanted to look at. I really dont understand this. At about 10:30 the employees of walmart haul hundreds of (the word for it slips my mind) stacks of boxes. out into the customer area and just leave them there waiting to be unloaded... later. I, and im sure you would agree if youve ever saw the way they do this, think they should bring them out as they are ready to stock that section. It would make for way happier customers. I mean especially on a friday night?

When I was like 10, me and my sister both had to go to the bathroom extremely bad. we were fighting over who gets to use the bathroom first. Finally my mom stops at some gas station so we can go. we both bolt into the store towards the bathroom. and go to run inthere. surprisingly the door is unlocked and a woman with dred locks is sitting on the toilet, idk what she was doing but there were alot of soud effects... possibly pooping? maybe. so we appologize and close the door. As it is closing we hear her say, "oh thats ok, come on in" wtf now ew! Anyway, the reason I tell this story. last night I beieve I might have used the same bathroom again. It looked the same leading up to it and inside, so im just guessing. in fear of walking in another dread locked woman i knocked loudly and waited a full minute and proceeded to open the door, very slowly though.

So im actually really scared about working today. I work with Miranda. She is so hard to work with. She complains about us being too "childish" or "immature" but its like honestly woman, your 25 working at a fast food place. you dropped out of school so you could be a whore, what lucky 4 children you have whose mother they dont see. Miranda, Get a REAL job than go complain about people enjoying their time at work. sure you'd like to make out with your boyfriend all day instead of work and since his mother is manager its alright for you to do that. but thats the childish and immature thing. The people who used to love their job Hate it "because of you". I honestly dont know why she is still employed there though she only does about 50% percent of the work she should be doing.

ok, its time for me to go suffer with the grand old bitch herself... oh, and sorry if im ranting, if you've worked with her you would too, trust me. Hey wait a second, maybe she will call in sick. heres to hoping

Ashley Bowerman

DFTBA

http://www.youtube.com/bucketlips572

Day 3

Just Thought I would shar a piece of where i live. this picture was actually taken by my cell phone, but turned out amazing.

The Collab... I recieved a message from our tuesday man who said he was not gonna be able to participate. So I found a new tuesday. Oddly enough both tuesdays have English/British accents. or something close to it haha. so as of this moment in channel there are four girls and 3 boys. at first I was thinking it was gonna be all guys and myself being the only girl. but last minute I found some girls to fill the spots. Yay!!

I guess today is my cousins birthday, so im gonna go ahead and give a shout out Happy Birthday to JAKE RUIS of Milaca, Minnesota.

Today my veda vlog is gonna be about a personal experience of mine. haha I have many of those. I call it the Louis Project. So It was prom... I didn't go neither did this person. anyway, I found his cell number and texted him. we had some pretty cool conversations. He then told me he was going to a party. The next day of school I was told by someone that he went around saying how much he liked and wanted to date the person he met in text. Which was kind of cool, and since I had a crush on the guy was totally amazing. Don't worry though, his friend who somehow knew my number told him it was me and he completely stopped talking to me. Now my question is this. If you talk to someone and think they are so amazing how can you just stop talking to them when you hear that you actually know them, and its somone you have never actually talked to?

I was just rewatching what i recorded for my vlog, and I yawned when I heard myself yawn. lol.

I heard the news the other day that my favorite band WILL be playing Warped Tour this year. Yes I will be there. and this time, I will get backstage passes and use them for real. lol

Got some tunes on. gonna go read some other BEDA's then finish with my video.

Later,
Ashley Bowerman
http://www.youtube.com/bucketlips572
http://www.youtube.com/lessthanlots

April 2 Vs. Aliens

Today was good.

My mother agreed to take me to go see Monsters Vs. Aliens 3D. I loved it. I'm probably too old for it, but i dont care I love cartoons. And Yes, I do highly recommend this movie to anyone else.

Im a little scared though, we got home at 10:30pm and I still hadn't had time to edit and upload todays Vlog, or write my Blog so currently I have 19 minutes left till I Fail My video is about 2/3 of the way uploaded so hopefully that will be dont in time. Fingers Crossed.

I was so impressed with Maureen Johnson's blog tv show last night that I puchased a book writen by her. I believe its by her anyway. Aparently there are a few different maureen Johnsons in the writing profesion. I bought the one titled oh man.. I cant remember, it was something about notes. sorry.

I am currently Listenning to Say Anything On windows media player. just like three more songs then my fave Band SENSES FAIL yes!!!.
-funny thing about senses fail-
I read this magazine called Alternative Press. all about music and musicians, the kind im into. anyway on their website you could vote for which band you wanted to see on the cover of their magazine, of course I wanted to see Senses Fail, but they werent listed in the pull down menu so im thinking oh man... Then I saw an area to type in other bands and instrustions read something like "to suggest any band not listed please type the band name only and in caps for exampl 'SENSES FAIL' dont not say you want your band like 'I want to see Senses Fail on the cover' this will not be counted" I almost peed myself my favorite band was their example *sigh*

Anyway Just checked my video progress, its gonna be so close. Is it the next day at Midnight or one minute after?

I was so excited today I found the last person to fill my YouTube collab channel http://www.youtube.com/user/lessthanlots but then our Tuesday man informed me he was going to have to drop out. So If your reading this and have under 500 subscribers and would like to be included in my collab channel send me a message at http://www.youtube.com/user/bucketlips572.

hmm... 6 minutes left and 1 cm about of video left to upload fingers still crossed. Im gonna stop this blog here though so it can be published in time. I am in such a writing mood right now I wish there were two more hours in today :)

good night,
Ashley Bowerman
DFTBA

edit: just noticed my actuall time is 2 hours later than displayed on here. my video uploaded with 2:30 minutes to spare yes!!! blog post times are with the time that you started them not the time you finished them.

haha APRIL FOOLS

Kinda upsetting I dont ever get a chance to prank anyone... I fail. aw well.
Hi, My name is Ashley I dont think anyone reads this or ever will. Meh, ill just write it for myself. today was a great day, I heard about a blog show with maureen Johnson and decided to attend. I was in the main room for the whole show, and it was one of the most epic blog shows I have ever watched. I am going to buy one of her books, as soon as I get enough money to haha. ATM im watching american Idol we usually record them and watch them all in one night, thats tonight!

So today was the first official day for my new channel. and i found a sixth person tonight who will be taking Thursdays, starting next week. I am wednesday, so I am the first one to post a video officially. I am pretty excited to see whats going to go on with this channel, for example is it gonna work out like planned. How long will it take for the initial group are evolved off. how long will it be until we find a Sunday. Well, this is a new experience for me, so we will see whats gonna happen.

I am actually really bad at grammar punctuations and run ons. the only thing im good at is the spelling for the most part. I generally do have good ideas, but getting them out on words is hard for me.

well i think thats good for the first of april, Later guys.
Ashley Bowerman.